Today dawned bright and clear, the trees shining orange and pink, and branches standing out with sharp clarity. A couple of days ago we had the season’s first light snow, initially sparking a discussion about whether the white stuff on the ground was snow or heavy frost, a conversation ended by many softly falling tiny flakes.
A few days ago Jennie’s Facebook account was hacked and she cannot get into her account. The persons involved then used PayPal to purchase ad time. Neither Facebook or PayPal seem to be interested in coming to our aid. So much for PayPal’s vaunted consumer protections.
We’re having a difficult time feeling festive this year. The similarity between now and WWII are striking and the environmental news seems to grow more dismal each day. Not least of my distress comes from the continued popular idea that we can accommodate to climate change just fine, and those (human and non) who can’t be damned.
Adding to our woes was my having an adverse med reaction and ending up in the ER needing five stitches. My face continues to look more apt for Halloween than the mid-winter holidays. I’m largely back to normal, although I do not yet trust my balance even though balance seemingly had nothing to do with the fall. I’m also still on a very soft food diet which has become incredibly dull despite Jennie’s best efforts. (This morning she made a bread pudding that was scrumptious even in semi-liquid form!)
The upshot of all this is that we are both even more aware of the basic fragility of things, and the essentially problematic nature of being alone. (Fortunately Jennie was a very short drive away….) Even Nori seems on edge and a bit distant, rather than being glued to me as she usually is when I am ill or injured.
The fascinating thing for me has been the need for sleep, which has decreased each day. I guess the combination of healing my face and Post Polio are more than my body can manage easily. Of course there is also the emotional element at play as well. Yes, post-traumatic exhaustion is a thing. We’re due for an intense storm this weekend and will see how that plays with my achy body.
We did manage to decorate the house, or rather Jennie did, so there is a modicum of seasonal décor, and we have been gathering gifts, and listing to a lot of Medieval seasonal music via BBC radio, so we are inching our way forward. Somehow the Medieval period seem quite near this year.
I hope you are well into the journey of this season, no matter how you celebrate it. May you have moments of surprise, glee, and joy!
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