Dreaming the World

We awoke to fading overnight rain. For a brief time the sly partially cleared revealing a lovely winterish sunrise. I had to go into my primary care office for a routine blood draw and joined what became a longish line waiting outside for the lab to open. Fortunately the morning is on the warm side so the wait was enjoyable. Now the light rain and fog have pressed back in and the day has darkened accordingly.

On Monday we made our yearly pilgrimage to the polio clinic. After seeing the OT, the PT, and the polio rehab specialist we received the news that I am doing remarkably well for how damaged my body was and is. We were also advised to be more focused on conserving my muscles and remaining motor neurons as age and overuse are taking a toll on them. Such is the staple truth of aging with post-polio. We then found a remarkable diner a brief drive from the clinic door. How we had not discovered this place before is a total mystery.

Yesterday I went in for the draw, only to be told they could not perform it until this morning. Then I went to the optometrist to pick up my new glasses, only to be told the lenses for my computer glasses were not cut correctly and had to be sent back along with my frames. The result is that I am facing a very blurry screen and will be doing so for at least another week.

I’m trying to at least skim everyone’s blog posts but it does not take long for my eyes to cross and my head to begin hurting. Rather than try to soldier on I have decided to simply do my best. I’ve also decided to give myself permission to only post when I am truly up for it, so the next week or so may be a time of relative silence from me.

Yesterday I received my first eurorack case and module; yes, I have finally taken the plunge after four years of considerable ambivalence. The upshot of that is that my already woefully overcrowded sound studio now has to absorb yet more gear (I realize my set-up is actually very much on the small side but there is very little space.) While the kids are here for Thanksgiving we will try to redesign the studio so everything fits and functions and there is at least a semblance of spaciousness.

I have looked at the calendar and note that tomorrow is Thanksgiving and Advent is neigh. Jennie is looking forward to Thanksgiving and is cooking and baking away. Last night she grabbed the last key lime pie from our local deli, so we will be well stocked for desert tomorrow. It’ll be fun to have a family gathering.

I’m ambivalent, at best, about the holiday. While I love to gather with others to express gratitude for all we are given, I am all too aware of the history of Thanksgiving feasts in this country. As a result I find myself habitually profoundly conflicted about the day. Fortunately the Native side of my family went all out at Thanksgiving so I have that to temper my tendency to just hide.

That said, if you also celebrate Thanksgiving I hope your day is filled with warmth, love, play, and joy, and your tastebuds overflow with happiness.